Grothe Spurt: Tales of a Growing Family

Yesterday was one of those days where I missed my "home." My big brother coaches a basketball team and his team qualified for state this last week. I am sad because I can't just make a quick trip and run over to watch his team play. I know I could hop in a plane or a drive in my car and I am thankful for that but both of those options take a lot of effort and expense. During this thought process I was reminded that as long as I am living away from my parents and siblings any events in our lives that we want to participate in will take effort-let alone the opportunities to participate in normal, daily activities. To be honest it just made very sad. Then of course I started reminding myself up saying at least I have a wonderful family that I love and enjoy being around, I have my health, two wonderful children and an amazing husband. I then started to feel selfish for feeling this way. Sometimes when I start feeling this way I want to push all those emotions aside and bury them and tell myself I am being selfish, but then I am reminded that the Lord gave me emotions. He knows how I feel before I even give a voice to my thoughts. I am thankful for a Lord who I can trust. I am thankful for a husband that I can just dump all of this on and he then responds with "I'm sorry" "I love you" and prays with me. He didn't try to fix it or talk me out of how I am feeling.

I woke up this morning feeling better, more composed but the feelings are present and raw-but I am thankful! Thankful that I have an amazing husband! I love sharing the adventures of this life with him!